t minus 4 days and counting

today's monday. i'm leaving thursday!!! holy shintzius!
that's sweet. i can't imagine what it's going to feel like to hop on that plane. and sit on that plane. and look out the window! i hope i have a fucking window seat...i think i booked one. gazing down over guatemala city!!! and maybe we'd fly over tikal. maybe i could discover a new ruin from the plane, and go locate it from the ground later on.
oh man. it's exciting.
most of the time i don't get excited about the trip. instead, i focus on all the reasons why i shouldn't go, on the things i feel guilty about - not enough money to justify travelling, no plan for what to do afterwards. but actually, i do have a job lined up for the summer already. sweet!
if i drop all of that stuff, i'm delighted - nervous but thrilled, about the prospect of going down there, and making it work. learning how to travel. taking this as a challenge. to be my strongest self, and open myself to the mystery and endless possibilities of each day and to connecting with the souls i meet.





oh god i don't want to sound like everyone else sounds when they travel. i want to be so damn unique. but some of us do it for all the same reasons.
openness and courage, that's what i'm shooting for.

that also might have to start right here, on good ol' blogdertainment.
openness and courage just to begin sharing these thoughts and feelings. and sometimes images. and surely there will be poetry to come too. i am looking forward to writing poetry on this trip. so to be able to share it - just throw it up here without quadruple checking to make sure it is all perfect and hilarious enough for people to see.

it's a freakin' journal. i'll try to make it interesting so you're not just reading a pile of my everyday thoughts, but otherwise, it's just me, sharing my days and staying connected.

love love love,
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